Name: holes (feat. Lenore Ettinger)
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Description: lyrics are from a poem written by a friend who killed herself and this song was my way of finally getting over it

holes (feat. Lenore Ettinger)

from The Puppeteer by TransFixed

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lyrics are from a poem written by a friend who killed herself and this song was my way of finally getting over it

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Holes (Amanda’s Song)
There is death and depression and drugs
Which grew holes inside my head
They grew wide when he entered the room
And deep when he left
They grew in my mind in the recesses of dark
Began small and enlarged as the days became years
(Contributing on and on)
There was a pinprick of guilt
And a tear in my sole
(From tripping all the time)
There was a burn that smoldered
And yet another hole (remained)
The ones given to me by others
The ones I gave myself
But every hole makes a whole person
Every end has a beginning
They won’t go away, the holes in my brain
And I wouldn’t wish them away at all
(It’s the more you know)

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from The Puppeteer, released March 24, 2015
lyrics written by Lenore Ettinger
Mastered by A Ghost in the way at The Subsurface Studio - Phoenix, AZ

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TransFixed Chicago, Illinois

TransFixed is an independent Project from Chicago, IL USA. Micah Disch started in 2004 Micah goes under the surname Prophet of KaoS for the group TransFixed. His focus is in the instrumental portion in which he gets inspiration from life's struggles. In the summer of 2011 Lenore Karoline Ettinger came into the picture. Lenore studied Music - Voice at Loyola University Chicago. ... more

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